A Month Ago

Time and really dragged and then flown by this past month.  It's really hard to believe that my dad died one month ago today.  I'm still very sad and it comes over me at any given moment.  I prayed to dream about my dad and so far I've had 3 dreams.  The first was the best...he walked into a room and we immediately hugged for a long time.  I woke up very happy that day and felt that God answered my prayers.  Not only did I dream about my dad, but I also dreamed about my Grandma F.  We were all at my Aunt Brenda's for a holiday (Thanksgiving?) and my Grandma F pulled up in her car (it was big Grandma F..not the skinny frail one she turned into but the one I remember from my whole life).  We all freaked out that she was there and my Aunt Jan explained to us that it was no big deal..she'd just been on a trip!  Ha..yeah, like a 10 year vacation! Anyway, it was nice to dream about her too.  My mom was quite amused at this dream of mine. 

I hosted BUNCO and won last night!  That's the most excitement we've had around here for a while.  It was nice to have 10 of my friends over for a girls night in.  I'm trying to get myself back into the blogging habit.  I realize that I've missed it but have been in such a funk. Hopefully, I'll get it together in time for the holidays...

I need to get going..my kids are cranky and both have runny noses ... not to mention they are still adjusting to the time change.

Wordless Wednesday

***I know this is supposed to be wordless and that Happy Mommy has posted this picture a few times but I wanted to see my Dad's photo on my blog too. It's been a week today...

I'm Still Here...Very Sad but Still Here

I haven't felt like blogging for over a week. There are no words to describe the emptiness I feel in my heart. It just all happened so quick. I'm thankful that I made it to the hospital in time and that my Dad got to see me and the twins. I prayed for time and I was given 26 hours to be with my Dad. He got to see Tate walk and he was so tickled at how cute he is. I'm thankful for my cousin Stacy and Aunt Brenda who came to town on Thursday morning to help with my kids. I don't know what I would've done without their help. I could hardly take care of myself let alone my babies. I'm thankful for all my family who came to pay their respects to my Dad. I'm thankful for the flowers, cards and kind words from my friends. I'm thankful that Happy Mommy's good friend dropped everything to come and watch her kids. I'm thankful that our former pastor flew in from Memphis TN to preach my Dad's service and tell us wonderful things about him. Please pray for my mom..I feel so sorry for her. My sister Kristy is staying with her and taking care of her until things settle a bit. This will be a big adjustment for all of us. I dread the holidays....especially Friday, my birthday. This will be the first time in 44 years that my Dad won't wish me a Happy Birthday or sing to me. Not looking forward to it at all...
But now, it's back to normal but things just don't feel the same. I guess this is the new normal.