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Tuesday, October 14, 2008

I'm Still Here...Very Sad but Still Here

I haven't felt like blogging for over a week. There are no words to describe the emptiness I feel in my heart. It just all happened so quick. I'm thankful that I made it to the hospital in time and that my Dad got to see me and the twins. I prayed for time and I was given 26 hours to be with my Dad. He got to see Tate walk and he was so tickled at how cute he is. I'm thankful for my cousin Stacy and Aunt Brenda who came to town on Thursday morning to help with my kids. I don't know what I would've done without their help. I could hardly take care of myself let alone my babies. I'm thankful for all my family who came to pay their respects to my Dad. I'm thankful for the flowers, cards and kind words from my friends. I'm thankful that Happy Mommy's good friend dropped everything to come and watch her kids. I'm thankful that our former pastor flew in from Memphis TN to preach my Dad's service and tell us wonderful things about him. Please pray for my mom..I feel so sorry for her. My sister Kristy is staying with her and taking care of her until things settle a bit. This will be a big adjustment for all of us. I dread the holidays....especially Friday, my birthday. This will be the first time in 44 years that my Dad won't wish me a Happy Birthday or sing to me. Not looking forward to it at all...
But now, it's back to normal but things just don't feel the same. I guess this is the new normal.

5 comments:

Happy Mommy said...

I feel the very same way. I love you and I am so sorry that your birthday is so soon. I wish I could make it special in some way but this sudden loss is just to much!

Giovanna Diaries said...

so sorry about your dad!
my first bday was the hardest when my dad died last year. totally didn't feel like celebrating anything. that empty feeling will fill up over time. it did for me. it filled up with all the happy memories.
again, i know how bad this sucks! Sorry....

Amy-littletoesandcheerios said...

I wish I could have spent more time with you and those sweet babies.
I love you all and feel closer to you than my own cousins.

The G's said...

I'm not going to pretend I know what you're going through but I am here.

Stacy said...

I am glad I could help in some little way. I just wish I had come sooner. I had to get my own dad situated (out of ICU) before I could leave.
Your son and daughter were an absolute delight and SO pleasant.
They've been through a HUGE loss too. Be thankful you have pictures of Uncle Jimmy with them. That can help them with a connection to him.